Because I like pain

…I applied for art representation again.

Always applying with different companies, I will never apply anywhere twice.

What I want is on the other side of rejection, I can only achieve that if I keep trying. Either I will get an agent one day, or I will find the continual job opportunities on my own through friends and networking.

Either way my bills are paid and I grow as an artist and business person.

Still though, bare witness to my audacity. I always apply with the high hopes of getting picked. Every rejection leads to smarter choices and different portfolio moves I wouldn't have considered If I wasn't so hungry and desperate as an illustrator.

There is no growth without pain, the rejections are redirections to make me work harder, and try new things.

I can say this in a positive light because I’ve had some successful projects this year, I have done well personally.

We will see what season I will be in on my journey, when I get my response to my inquiry. That, will determine how well I cope.

I'm proud of the body of work I did submit. Do I think I got in? Probably not, I don't feel so confident anymore about anything lol. I get accepted for things I don't expect, and I get rejected for things I was expecting.

I'm hopeful. That's all.