Drawing through grief

grief

Jul 22

I mention grief on this blog A LOT. I’ve had many people die that were close to me over the last 10 years, and this affects me on a daily basis. Some died from cancer, or an accident, or organ failure. Some were a total surprise, and others were expected. But even when you know that their death is coming, it still hurts hard. Their absence is felt and honestly I’d do anything for one more hug from them again.

I hope to write more positive and uplifting things when I can. But my reality has me grieving often, for many, and it’s not always tears. Sometimes it comes out in frustration and rage. Sometimes it’s a happy memory.

I have mentioned my friend Andrew’s passing, in a previous blog. I've felt a need to draw a Grimlock related art for him ever since. But when I would start the art, it would feel too heavy to do.. I give myself grace and realise that I wasn't ready to draw this particular piece yet.

Fast forward time, and I've done the drawing. My mind is at a little rest. It's bothered me for awhile, not having this drawing done. So the relief is monumental.

I'm still incredibly sad he's not here on this same plane of existence as I am.

✨🍻This one's for you, Andrew. Hope you're laughing and having a merry old time with your dad and niece. Till we meet again brother!💜✨

grief

vanessa netzel

Dec 12, 2024

Hobbies and varied interests of sorts.

I have TOO MANY INTERESTS. Everything is interesting. I can be surprised by the things that suddenly intrigue me. Currently I’m debating attempting to turn my poinsettia into a bonsai after the holidays. I learned that poinsettia originate from Mexico, and that climate enables them to grow into trees. Poinsettia trees are BEAUTIFUL. But I live in a cold climate. And I don't have a greenhouse. I thought about stunting the plant into a bush. Some say it's hard to do, some say it's easy. I’m debating if I need another project right now.

Nov 18, 2024

Postal strike, goodbye Etsy, hello Ko-fi

There has been so many surprises over the last year, I’m weary of them now. Another surprise is just how much Etsy makes off each sale.

Before the move, I was selling things so rapidly it wasn't easy to keep track of the hidden fees. I’d had my shop for years. I ignored the fees, figured they balanced out in the end. I was selling and paying bills after all, and that was the goal.

I moved locations, eventually reopened my Etsy shop, and had my first sale. One sale meant it was very easy to see how much Etsy took in fees. Every deduction from Etsy was just on that one solitary sale.

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