Don't force yourself to draw
Sounds like common sense right?
Don't force yourself to do anything if it's just not working out that day.
But, I'm stubborn, and there's a new Megatron design I wanted to draw SO BADLY. It had been awhile since my muse inspired me to draw him. I was so excited.
The first twenty minutes of drawing him went fine. I felt so confident in the process, I shared a pic with twitter and announced I would have it finished in a day. In time for hashtag Megatron Monday.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAH said my reality.
Over the 24 hours I would struggle between recieving very stressful news and juggling more things that I usually do. No surprise, when I finally sat down to draw, my art was uninspired.
I figured I would just start a new page, try something different. That should inspire me and get things flowing.
Inspiration did hit and I changed more of his design to lean towards his stealth bomber design. But the execution of drawing was just. Not. There.
I should have quit while I was ahead, but the pressure of promising people on social media a finished art for Monday loomed over my head. I have already been struggling for this year producing transformers stuff. I felt like I was letting people down. It's so hard to choose between my own ideas and ideas inspired by other people. I want to do both, but my time to draw is so limited with everything else.
Aha! I had a bold idea suddenly. I will simply use one of the ideas for a color scheme I've had, on him! New page, new pose, I'll paint him this time. This idea should be what will solve all my drawing errors and this is what I can use for Megatron Monday….
Ugh. First his head was too big then his face was wrong then his body looked too “seeker-ish”
By th end of the day I finally called it quits. And I realised I just wasn't going to have anything ready for Megatron Monday. I didn't want to just post this or any of the things I drew that day. None were up to what I typically produce. Heavily embarrassed by it all. This isn't even all of it, just what I'm sharing.
It's hard to say but some days it's going to feel like nothing was learned or gained, just supplies wasted and heartache.
Fast forward to today. I've given up on everything I attempted yesterday. I will use the red and green for Megatron another day. Just not right now.
I sat down to attempt to draw him and it's going so much better today. Even his face looks tenfold better. Today is a good drawing day.
Annnnd because of ALL my drawing attempts on him yesterday, I have muscle memory of his new design features already. So there's that. It wasn't a total waste. I did get better at drawing Megatron.
