Multitasking

I injured myself last week, moving furniture and stuff around. I was unable to sit down for any long period of time, sleeping was hard, and so my concentration was out the window. No art was made during those days.

Today I'm feeling better, and I'm all revved up and multitasking three projects at once. Because my brain works best this way. Under stress. Self imposed stress, it's just art that I wanted to make, not owed to anyone. But I couldn't settle on one project, so three it is.

Lol the absolute chaos of my workspace. But I function really well this way. Anytime I properly put my supplies away, this mess returns as soon as I hit the drawing flow. I lose consciousness of being neat and orderly, and I just grab and grab at supplies and discard them as quickly.

It's just how *I* work.

While I take a break, I look over the art I'm working on and brainstorm my next moves on that particular piece. So I don't forget the ideas I plan to move with, I jot down visual notes using the paint app. These markers remind me of my plans, when I start the work again. My attention span is short and my idea flow is like roaring rapids. I can only remember so much, before it gets lost in the current and something else pops up to take my interest.

I used to hate my work flow. I used to wish I could be orderly and tidy and organized, I wished I could draw smooth thin line art, wanting everything that I don't currently do in my art. That, made me miserable as an artist. The difference between getting better with smoothing your lines out, and aiming for something pretty unattainable, lies in your production.

If you're so discouraged to draw anything at all, because you hate your lineart and all your practising never gets better…maybe you need to come to terms with that it's not your style. You can like it all you want, but deep down inside you want to draw something different. You just havient figured that out yet.

Why hate myself for being chaotic when I make such beautiful art in the end of it. Who cares how it gets there. Embrace what you do wholeheartedly, don't worry what someone else is doing. If it INSPIRES you to create and keep striving to create more and better, then that's awesome. It goes with your deep drawing desires, you will achieve art growth her, definitely keep at it

Always be mindful of who and what makes you stop drawing. What moods, what people say, the things that shut you down.